By Monika Tinevova
Thank you to Heavenly Parent and True Parents, that I can be here in the Cheonbo training center for the first time.
I came with very clear goal to resolve problem that I had had for more than 20 years. Hateful feelings towards my husband every time he touched me. It was really difficult for me to be intimate. And often I had the same feelings towards my children when they came to hug me. When I came here, I began to have a lot of physical difficulties, for example pain in my ankles so that I couldn’t walk very much or sleep. So it was difficult to offer conditions. But I did offer devotion like going to the water of life, Hyojeong tree, Hyojeong wish paper, chanyang [singing and clapping], vigil prayer. But nothing seemed to work. I was desperate so I prayed in Cheon Shim Won, repented and asked True Father for help to guide me how to change my feelings.
Then our lecturer Dr. Moon In-seong suggested that I pray that during the chanyang our Heavenly Parent could use my hands and remove the evil spirits that are causing me to have these feelings. I prayed honestly. When I started to clap, True Parents came, stood on each side of me and did the chanyang for me. It was beyond words: there was so much energy, light and love going in and out of my body like waves. True Parents took a huge spirit out of my chest, which took very long time and was very difficult to do. When True Parents left with the spirit, I thought that I would feel relieved, but I was in so much pain. I was really cold and my body was shivering, and it felt as if, physically, there was huge hole in my chest.
I prayed at Cheon Shim Won giving my gratitude to Heavenly Parent and True Parents, apologising that they had to work so hard to take out the spirit, but I was told that this spirit is also their child, and they want to take care of this person. As I wondered what would happen with the hole in my chest, suddenly True Parents came again and in a split second the hole was covered with skin. True Parents told me that because they took out the spirit they will take responsibility for nothing to come in unless I allow it.
I understood that I must fill up this space with a lot of love and gratitude towards Heavenly Parent, True Parents, my husband and children, and more.
I saw True Parents both times, first during the chanyang. True Mother was on my right side and True Father on my left. It felt very substantial. I could see them clearly and feel their touch the whole time when they were taking the spirit out of me. The second time, during the prayer, I also saw them clearly standing in front of me.
Through this and many other experiences I have been able to completely change my feelings towards my husband and I really wish he could be here. I miss him.
Thank you for reading my testimony.
Monika gave this testimony during the vigil prayer at the training center in September. The Cheonbo training center (formerly known as the Cheongpyeong training center) has branches and ongoing workshops in each region.