Early Day Internal Guidance
A lecture given by Rev. Zin Moon Kim on June 9, 1991, at Belvedere
Part 2 (See Part 1)
Be a public person
Father says the center of the universe is the universal, cosmic mind. The universe consists of three components: heaven, earth, and man. These three must cooperate with each other to reach God’s goal. God can’t make His goal without human beings. Earth also can’t make a tradition without human beings. Even human beings can’t make a goal without the help of others. In this sense, everything is public, not private. The more privacy you seek, the more problems you will get. In National Headquarters every office has one person and one computer, although Father has said many times that all should be together so we can help each other. Fallen people need to be supervised by each other. If we want privacy it means we want to do something secretly. Father said that each of us is surrounded by more than 700 spirits. Even at nighttime, at least 700 spirits are looking at you! So actually, there is no privacy.
Our compartmentalized society originated from the archangel after the fall. The archangel should have been with God all the time, helping God’s providence. But with anger, complaints, and excuses he left God; individualism started from that point. Everyone needs to strongly criticize our own self, centering on this speech. If I criticize you individually you feel unhappy, so you need to criticize yourself.
Human beings have many kinds of organs. Father said each organ of my body is representative of myself. Each organ must be in balance or else the human body has a problem. God’s providence is in a sense balancing human history. If one had many bad ancestors, then to make a balance, he needs many kinds of indemnity conditions. One who had many good ancestors doesn’t need much indemnity to make a balance. When we think vertically, then we can understand everything. But when we just think horizontally, we fail to understand: “He and I are the same age physically and joined the Unification Church at the same time, even attended a 40-day workshop at the same time, but why I am so suffering yet he is so happy?” Such a person isn’t thinking of his ancestors.
In one Sunday sermon Father explained about freedom and dictatorship. Because dictators have always been bad people, we have a bad feeling about the word. But if there is a dictatorship based on true love, everyone likes it. When your husband embraces you so tightly that you can’t move, you are still happy because your loss of freedom is motivated by love. Dictatorship in and of itself is not bad or good, but why one is using dictatorship is the key. Freedom needs responsibility. In Genesis, God gave responsibility first “Don’t eat the fruit.” He never said, “Please enjoy freedom.” This is historically the first responsibility given to human beings by God. If we seriously fulfill our responsibility, then freedom automatically comes.
Father said a good dictatorship makes balance, harmony, and unification centering on the public purpose, serving all people. If people use the dictatorship system for a person or political party, it is evil. Freedom and dictatorship can be harmonized through true love.
Father asked me to educate members. So, if I know you are having a meeting, I will come whether or not you invite me, because when members gather it is a good chance to talk. Recently I attended a meeting to which I hadn’t been officially invited; at first, they didn’t pay any attention to me. But I had a mission given by Father: “You must talk.” So, I started and for around one hour I just shouted. I was in San Francisco for five years and members were suffering so much because of my shouting. One day Heung Jin Nim came and said, “Rev. Kim’s shouting is like medicine. You must take it.” After that, no one complained. Fallen people need bitter medicine. Sweet talking will give us diabetes and kill us spiritually. Usually, Chinese medicine is very bitter, with no sugar coating, but is very effective. We need bitter medicine.
So whenever there is a meeting, I will suddenly be there. God never makes an appointment to say something. I’ll follow God’s pattern. Heavenly speech is the starting point of creation and recreation, so we need heavenly words. They are the most important-more than our baby, more than our spouse, more than myself. If we don’t understand the Principle deeply, we are not members.
I always ask blessed members, “Do you know what you pledged when you raised your right hand in front of True Parents at the Blessing time?” If we don’t know the content of the pledge, we are not a blessed member and should remove your ring. Many of us are not serious about understanding that pledge. In other words, we like the Blessing-we enjoy sex and having babies-but animals do the same thing. We are not animals. Human beings must do something that animals don’t do.
Be united in heart
One month ago we invited 170 Soviet politicians to a three-day Principle workshop. At the end of the workshop, one of them said, “People like unification, but communist unification is very bad. I think Rev. Moon will make a good unification.” I learned something from him. We unite very nicely sometimes, but it must be for the purpose of the whole, not just for a particular group. The Unification Church is God’s church or humankind’s church. We need to resolve any divisions; we must change our attitudes.
If we hurt any part of our body, no matter how small, the whole body feels pain. This is like the ideal world. If you have a problem, then I also feel some problem. Sixty thousand people are dying of starvation every day and yet Americans are preoccupied with dieting! How unbalanced this fallen world is! Our garbage cans are overflowing with leftover food. I was in Africa for three years, traveling through 30 countries. Every day I felt hungry and many times sick. But I couldn’t show it because then everyone would feel hungry. So all the time I had to pretend I was healthy.
But since I have come to America, I feel full every day. Here one day fasting is easy, but in Africa, it is very difficult because people are already hungry. If we were God seeing our hungry children in Africa and to rest and prepare to go to the spirit world, but he is always busy. During Father’s Sunday sermons, I see him sweating. If Parents have to work so hard it means we are lazy children. If we were doing everything very well, he would not have to talk for a long time. He said many times, “I gave you everything.” But he continues to give and give because we don’t practice what he has given. So we need to repent all the time.
Usually, we pray, “Good morning Heavenly Father.” I never say that because I know our Heavenly Father can’t have a good morning. He is missing billions of children and is crying all the time. If we miss our children, we are very sorrowful, so “Good morning” is not a good greeting. If we know God’s situation, our prayer must start from repentance first.
Father explains true love all the time. More than 200 books of Father’s speeches have already been published. One common essence of these books is “true love.” Please try to practice living for the sake of others. Life for the sake of myself is a problem. Jesus said 2000 years ago, “If you want to follow me, first you must deny your own self.” Father has talked with us about self-denial many times. I’m also a fallen person; so, before I push you, I push myself first. Before shouting at you, I shout at myself first in my prayer room.
Unification, harmony, and balance can only be made by true love. Without true love, without living for the sake of others, we can’t make world peace. Many politicians are trying to make world peace, but it can’t be done because they don’t live for the sake of others.
Heavenly Father exists for human beings, so we must love God more than anyone else including myself, my spouse, or my children. Then we become one with God.
Responsibility and freedom
One time last year in Moscow, Father said, “God created human beings better than Himself.” We are supposed to be better than God. But we became very strange. God is practicing His responsibility. Likewise, we need to practice our responsibility. If we do, we shall become almighty and all-knowing like God. We have a spirit, and God is a spirit. But God doesn’t have a physical body like we do, so God created His children better than Himself. He had such great hopes for human beings; but when man fell, He was miserably disappointed.
When I was a center leader in 1970 in Taegu, Korea, an old lady visited me early one morning to tell me: “In my dream, one person appeared in front of me. He said He is God. When I looked under His two eyes, there were two big trenches, like a river. A human being’s face is small, so how could there be a river there?” I told her, “Heavenly Father misses all of His children, so through 6000 Biblical years-scientifically millions and millions of years cried and cried. His tears made a trench. Through such a dream, we should understand how sorrowful God is and ease His heart through our own dedication and sacrifice.” She said, “You have a very good interpretation.”
True Parents are also the same. Without Father praying for us, we would not be here. Everyone has received the tribal messiahship activity application form. Everyone must go back to their hometown. In Korea, knowing one’s hometown is very easy, but in America it is difficult. So I asked Father again and again, although I think he didn’t feel so happy because I wanted to make hometown very clear to you. Father said, “Go back to your hometown.” But he never went to his hometown, and he never let me go back to my hometown. He never let Rev. Kamiyama go back to his hometown. But all the time he says, “Go back to your hometown.” So, I wanted to know what our hometown is. Father gave a very clear answer, which is printed on the back page of that application form. Father said, “If a blessed couple doesn’t submit that sheet, I cannot be responsible for them.” If Father has no concern about us, our destiny will be very difficult.
Try to witness quickly. I think many of us are not serious to witness. It means we are dying. Members who don’t want to witness make many kinds of com-plaining excuses. The first historical human excuse came after God asked Adam why he had eaten the fruit. Adam replied, “You created a woman, and because of her I ate the fruit.” Usually, members who don’t witness have many kinds of satans coming to them anger, and complaints. Eventually, they are hiding from the Church. If we do our mission clearly, we will have no problems.
We need to raise our children to be heavenly patriots to revive America. We must care for our babies more than ourselves or our spouses. Then when the children grow up, they will take care of us, the parents, very carefully and sacrificially.
Please educate blessed children directly and indirectly. Teach them to feel responsible. Children who enjoy freedom without responsibility will become juvenile delinquents. We need to educate children by action, not just by saying, “Honey, don’t do this, don’t do that.” It doesn’t work.
Every morning we should get up, wash our face, and bow to True Parents’ picture. After that husband and wife need to bow to each other, and let our children bow to us. In the beginning, you must force them to do this, but after several months it becomes automatic. We know in Father’s home, all the children from Ye Jin Nim to Jeung Jin Nim bow whenever they greet their parents, and bow when they leave. We too need to follow such a tradition, but we usually don’t. If children never see their parents getting up early to bow to True Parents, to pray and study the Principle, they won’t do it either. When I visit a home where there are children, and the parents say, “Honey, say hello to Rev. Kim,” many of the children say, “No.” I am unhappy about the parents’ education of their children. If parents give freedom without responsibility, they will eventually spiritually kill their children. They are God’s children, not our personal children. We need to raise children to understand “we” not “I”. If we say “I, my, me” many times we will develop heart trouble.
You are laughing even though I am shouting! Thank you very much. I think you have swallowed this bitter medicine; so you will become nice people. See you soon to share some more bitter medicine. God bless you, my dear brothers and sisters. Let us pray.